Confused

I have never so confused before..
The feeling is so scary when I couldn't answer their questions..

I wanted to say out loud that I really do ..
but the words evaporated before they manage to come out!!
I don't know whether that's my true answer,
or the answer that I wish I had??

I've tried changing topics,
but...
that doesn't change the fact, does it??

I've never doubted my feelings like how I do today!!
Do I really have to??
If that question was asked again..
Will I be able to answer confidently??

I seriously don't know my not-sad-feeling is just to cover my own feeling and weaknesses..
or I'm not sad at all??!!

I really don't know~~