Missing you

I miss Gan Bei Lynn wtf.. sharing ups and downs of EVERYTHING!! sneaking out from the class to go recess with me earlier (but only happens during her add maths class) staying back for her because she is staying back for hers. going to her class in the morning to talk but found her sleeping so sat queitly at the side. enjoyed numerous outings and girl's talk

I miss Soo Yee Sin and the reason is obvious

I miss Low Wai Yee for being there always and being my play rain kaki. going for recess together during her last year just to spend more time together until the day she found hers. being strangers on kaki lima face to face but such a caring one on phone @@

I miss Choo Yee Wei Rebecca for staying back whenever I'm staying and treat me lolipop everyday. saying I will study for PMR and she will study for her SPM but wth we talked the whole time. looked at her everytime, wondering seriously whether got chicken little's shadow or not.

I miss Chan Pui Yee and the dances we danced for prefect's gathering. The stories told by her and her S.H.E songs and MVs. Introducing Avril Lavigne to her and went to watch 'Secret' by Jay in Jusco, finding no more seats so chosen couple seat.

I miss Yap Hui Yoke for the practices we have gone through and the gossips on the person we dislike. Going her house earlier than everybody else to chat and tuition night together with rocky to keep us awake.

I miss Amanda Hew Mun Yee for her stories on hers and enjoy admiring her fans' bravery! Teaching me ICUCICU when I'm just 14 yeaers old.

I miss Goh Pei Yan for her acting that was so real. I was amazed by her for how a person like her can act so well ohmygoodness you may join the entertainment cycle for drama or movie and I'm sure you will be successful.

*chuckled* I didn't know I will miss all that~

It somehow saddens me by thinking how close we were once upon a time... with all the promises you've made, but nothing's done! You have never been anywhere close when you are needed most. "I'm sorry but I'm kinda busy now" was often heard and this sentence made me hesitate to update you about myself.

I kept wondering whether have you forgotten my existence, reading back all the messages and all the memories came back suddenly~


Eventhough the status changes, part of the heart is still there. How I'd wish that I can undo everything so the memories of both of us will never be created. I wish I have not met you. Oh, this is way too dramatic but who cares lah this is my blog!!!!

DARLING!!

You made this thing beating in my left chest feel better!!

Hope yours feel as good as mine now...

cant recall the last time doing this..
but got scolded by HER.. =(
next time do behind her!!
shhh....

Christmast Eve.. =[

mom suddenly ask me whether I wanna join dear GBL for countdown or not!!
even my dad thought I'm going, he called to asked me to be careful!

but sorry dears..
I'm not joining you guys!!
I cant ren xin let my mom alone kat rumah lar.. =]
haih...
hahah!!
but without me you guys pun akan sangat enjoy punya~

ambil banyak banyak pictures bagi i tengok!!
and also that picture I wanted to see~
REMEMBER!!
and GBL, you are gonna be postman again soon!! =p

24/12

who said we skipped practice for today, huh??
we DID praticed!! for lets say.. less than half an hour??!!

went HY's house to wait for dear HM~
and I suka sangat budak yue rui tu!!
very cute and en tao!!
he's 2/3 years old human kind BUT speaking alien languanges!!

after prac, HY came my house to wait for 12pm arrival!
and we had lunchie together with KK..
planned to go d fortune but dunno which rich human booked the WHOLE restaurant..
end up we go eat seafood.. [yum yum]

hmm...
and boycotted + blacklist him because he parked NO PARKING supposedly punya place..
haha!!
anw, thx for the lunch !! =]

ya.. me, MF, MY, WW and KS watched 2012.. and after lunchie at McD, WW and I watched Phobia 2 while KS, MF and MY watched Mulan..

MF and MY came to fetch me as early as 9am.. so, we let the train moves while we'll wait for the next one!!

the 1st thing we did was going for the directory, finding for MCKY to visit WMY.. she was wiping the big mickey that time and it's her husband.. next, we went to the gardens to find THS at starbucks.. Gosh.. she was so busy that time..

then, we went to buy tickets for 2012 because WW and KS are coming by cab, and might be late.. so we planned to buy for the second movie as well but that cashier said phobia 2 is only for above 18!! ==" end up ask WW and KS buy, the cashier didn't say anything!! O.o

2012 was fine and MF keep saying dat one of the guy sangat cute!! and we were actually keep laughing when having our lunch!! KS and WW have not taken their breakfast actually til 2pm ++.. and they are VERY hungry.. KS ate the most!! [woah~]

during Phobia time, gosh.. it was scary!! no one sit beside me and I was keep imagining what if the chair comes down by itself?! and the girls beside the unsitted chair are very noisy, they talked and laughed very loud lo~ ya.. and WW sit until so cool like nothing happened while I keep turning my head whenever I was frightened!![compare and contrast] haha! and ya, we admitted my good turning skills because not once also my head bang him!! haha..

we played hide and seek for 20 minutes.. and ate ice cream.. then go back!! Thanks to WW and KS for teman-ing me go back to Kepong station..[their stop is act Bank Negara, and it arrives b4 kepong].. thank you korang banyak banyak!!

I had lotta fun!! thanks guys~

2/12

Did you realised I didn't talk about Mlk trip?
ya.. cz BL sudah habiskan semua cerita itu!!

went gurney for movie again!!
Warren fetched us.. haha~ [thanks Mr. Driver!!]
this time, we've got me, sis, Pat, Warren, and YS!!

we planned to watch Phobia 2~
went there, haha..
no more show!!
so.. after long discussion, we decided to watch New Moon bcz refused to watch Christmast Carol!!
and sorry 4 Twilight fans, the show is very boring!!
but what makes us keep laughing quietly, is the people in the front row!!
listening to their conv really keep us awake!!

haha~
oh.. did I tell you Mr. L is cute?!
=]
haha~

28/11

I kat Penang only for 1 week la!
ya.. arrived on Friday!!

Saturday went out with sis, Pat, Mich, SY, GZ, Roger and Warren!!
went gurney red box first, then movie~
I think its either me too outdated or they are..
cz the songs they chose, fuyoh!!
I didn't hear b4 one..

ya...
and half way singing dear GBL video call me to make me jealous!!
I tell you, I blacklist korang sudah!! =p
and I showed BL lengzai through video call man!!

I went back in room 12 and dia orang thought I was talking to my BF..
haha~

drama

lalala~
watched a drama yesterday! [its a drama, not movie]
Celebration, it is called!
very funny lor..and full of dirty words~
ya...and it costs me rm15 to watch this drama which took only 70 minutes!!

before entering the so-called hall,
we were so bek chek outside with lottha people!!
oh ya!! "we" are me, sis, and Pat!

after drama-ing, we went makan la of coz kan?!
ya.. dear Mr Pat keep rounding here and there to find for food..
the passengers in the car got bored and this came out..

hahaha~end up found a place to makan ad..

and I dunno what it's called!! haha~

and the drama okok aje lo!! macam sangat ng dai saje~

20/11

lets start with going to the field to practice marching at 7.30am!!
Gosh.. everyone, including me, excluding YHY seems like half dead!!
so sleepy man!!!

oh ya!
and dear GBL sudah straightened her hair!!
tapi padan muka at the same time,
sebab she cannot tie her hair and keep complaining she feel very hot..
=p

and FMF makan until sangat full kat PH.. XD
jugak lupa 2 pay back MML money timm~~
[not purposely de ah]
and ter-follow the song 'SHUT UP AND DRIVE' when MML is talking while she's driving!!
[seriously!! not purposely!!]

lastly!!
excited about tomorrow~
haha... macam sakai je..
what to do?!
its my first time.. lalala~~

reflection

if it's not because of the reflection,
today's dilemma would not happen!!

if it's not because of the reflection,
MF would not be this sad!!

if it's not because of the reflection,
MF would not wake up!!

and if it's not because of the reflection,
MF is still living in her fairy tale!!

oh dear!!
GBL, MF need you sangat sangat now..
you must know that it's not MF's will to be like this.
She is guilty, yes she knows!

please stop scolding the thing beating in her left chest!!
because it suffers a lot too~
although it is its fault!

MF is trying to avoid things from getting worse!

??

nothing to post, actually..haha!

dear darling

It's fun to quarrel with you...to be exact, FIGHT!!
but definitely not the scissors fight, kay??
its scary!!

Enjoy every moment asking you to "shut up"!!
and sometimes "shut it" as you've used my line!!
And also stop talking to you cz you are way too noisy..[haha]
and also because you are abusing me..
mentally, physically and emotionally!!

Enjoy the moments of gossiping others!!
though its bad,
still...
we love it!!

Enjoy wandering around the school with you
to find teachers

Enjoy chatting with you
sharing experiencing-experience
[its good to know that someone has the same thought]
and that someone is so near, very near

Enjoy every single day seeing your face
and made Izzati laugh everyday [not purposely]
and made YPW said we makes weird noises!!

love u much much!!

finally

"Girls, the letter is finally here!!" Ms.S said

It was the letter that everyone doesn't wanna receive..
The truth of only 10subjects can be taken is right in front of me..
haha..
Too bad la~

I've chosen account instead of EST
not that I find EST boring or useless
I just...
prefer account more..

counting is always easier than writing for me!! ^^

Found this picture somewhere and agreed to it!!

Thank you very much for completing my life!!

It'll sure be incomplete and meaningless without you~

may God bless you always!! =]

No more

We are basically back to square one!!

No more texting
No more chatting
No more talking
No more looking at each other
No more caring words from you
No more lame jokes from you
No more problems of yours
No more comforting words from you after nightmares
No more 'sorry' from you for breaking promises
No more 'no next time' from you
No more promises from you
No more laugh-for-nothing from you

fmf is quite lonely without you~

simply

Fun time has gone!!
Let's get back into studying mode~

Today is such a cold day,
and I'm sitting below the fan!!

After one period of English,
I didn't notice AT ALL that the fans were off!!
and yet, I still keep complaining it's freezing cold!! [=.="]

Dear wei wen,
not that I do not wanna update..
It's just I have nothing to be updated!!
and your result of boredom,
80 questions lea~
lazy to answer.. [haha]
I promise I will update once I got things to be updated, kay??
haha..

gbl's big day!!

Dear GBL..

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to Bei Lynnnnnn~~

Happy Birthday to YOU!!!!

Happy Sweet 16!!

Stay cheerful

Stay energetic

Stay funny [;)]

zhong zi,

Stay as who you are!!

muacks!!

fmf love u..

:)

Friends Forever??

hahaha...

-meifang-

Confused

I have never so confused before..
The feeling is so scary when I couldn't answer their questions..

I wanted to say out loud that I really do ..
but the words evaporated before they manage to come out!!
I don't know whether that's my true answer,
or the answer that I wish I had??

I've tried changing topics,
but...
that doesn't change the fact, does it??

I've never doubted my feelings like how I do today!!
Do I really have to??
If that question was asked again..
Will I be able to answer confidently??

I seriously don't know my not-sad-feeling is just to cover my own feeling and weaknesses..
or I'm not sad at all??!!

I really don't know~~

does it hurt??

*bang*
Promises broken again!!
though you have promised not to hang around with her??
but you DID
supposing no feeling since this is not your first time doing so
but,
God, seriously,
are you out of your mind??

You have been warned!!
have been told!!
have seen the others!!

How come??
how come you still can trust a person like that??

There's nothing else you could do right now,
except..
think of a way to reduce the "impulsive force" on her..
so that she would not be too hurt by the truth..

As I told you,
day by day..
the true colour of hers will be revealed slowly!!

But you just do not listen..
now,
you know the pain!!