[Take A Break]

Missing you

2011-01-09T14:16:00.005+08:00

I miss Gan Bei Lynn wtf.. sharing ups and downs of EVERYTHING!! sneaking out from the class to go recess with me earlier (but only happens during her add maths class) staying back for her because she is staying back for hers. going to her class in the morning to talk but found her sleeping so sat queitly at the side. enjoyed numerous outings and girl's talk

I miss Soo Yee Sin and the reason is obvious

I miss Low Wai Yee for being there always and being my play rain kaki. going for recess together during her last year just to spend more time together until the day she found hers. being strangers on kaki lima face to face but such a caring one on phone @@

I miss Choo Yee Wei Rebecca for staying back whenever I'm staying and treat me lolipop everyday. saying I will study for PMR and she will study for her SPM but wth we talked the whole time. looked at her everytime, wondering seriously whether got chicken little's shadow or not.

I miss Chan Pui Yee and the dances we danced for prefect's gathering. The stories told by her and her S.H.E songs and MVs. Introducing Avril Lavigne to her and went to watch 'Secret' by Jay in Jusco, finding no more seats so chosen couple seat.

I miss Yap Hui Yoke for the practices we have gone through and the gossips on the person we dislike. Going her house earlier than everybody else to chat and tuition night together with rocky to keep us awake.

I miss Amanda Hew Mun Yee for her stories on hers and enjoy admiring her fans' bravery! Teaching me ICUCICU when I'm just 14 yeaers old.

I miss Goh Pei Yan for her acting that was so real. I was amazed by her for how a person like her can act so well ohmygoodness you may join the entertainment cycle for drama or movie and I'm sure you will be successful.

*chuckled* I didn't know I will miss all that~

2011-01-08T20:38:00.002+08:00

It somehow saddens me by thinking how close we were once upon a time... with all the promises you've made, but nothing's done! You have never been anywhere close when you are needed most. "I'm sorry but I'm kinda busy now" was often heard and this sentence made me hesitate to update you about myself.

I kept wondering whether have you forgotten my existence, reading back all the messages and all the memories came back suddenly~

Eventhough the status changes, part of the heart is still there. How I'd wish that I can undo everything so the memories of both of us will never be created. I wish I have not met you. Oh, this is way too dramatic but who cares lah this is my blog!!!!

2010-03-01T19:40:00.003+08:00

DARLING!!

You made this thing beating in my left chest feel better!!

Hope yours feel as good as mine now...

cant recall the last time doing this..
but got scolded by HER.. =(
next time do behind her!!
shhh....

Christmast Eve.. =[

2009-12-24T19:49:00.005+08:00

mom suddenly ask me whether I wanna join dear GBL for countdown or not!!
even my dad thought I'm going, he called to asked me to be careful!

but sorry dears..
I'm not joining you guys!!
I cant ren xin let my mom alone kat rumah lar.. =]
haih...
hahah!!
but without me you guys pun akan sangat enjoy punya~

ambil banyak banyak pictures bagi i tengok!!
and also that picture I wanted to see~
REMEMBER!!
and GBL, you are gonna be postman again soon!! =p

24/12

2009-12-24T19:39:00.003+08:00

who said we skipped practice for today, huh??
we DID praticed!! for lets say.. less than half an hour??!!

went HY's house to wait for dear HM~
and I suka sangat budak yue rui tu!!
very cute and en tao!!
he's 2/3 years old human kind BUT speaking alien languanges!!

after prac, HY came my house to wait for 12pm arrival!
and we had lunchie together with KK..
planned to go d fortune but dunno which rich human booked the WHOLE restaurant..
end up we go eat seafood.. [yum yum]

hmm...
and boycotted + blacklist him because he parked NO PARKING supposedly punya place..
haha!!
anw, thx for the lunch !! =]

2009-12-09T11:30:00.006+08:00

ya.. me, MF, MY, WW and KS watched 2012.. and after lunchie at McD, WW and I watched Phobia 2 while KS, MF and MY watched Mulan..

MF and MY came to fetch me as early as 9am.. so, we let the train moves while we'll wait for the next one!!

the 1st thing we did was going for the directory, finding for MCKY to visit WMY.. she was wiping the big mickey that time and it's her husband.. next, we went to the gardens to find THS at starbucks.. Gosh.. she was so busy that time..

then, we went to buy tickets for 2012 because WW and KS are coming by cab, and might be late.. so we planned to buy for the second movie as well but that cashier said phobia 2 is only for above 18!! ==" end up ask WW and KS buy, the cashier didn't say anything!! O.o

2012 was fine and MF keep saying dat one of the guy sangat cute!! and we were actually keep laughing when having our lunch!! KS and WW have not taken their breakfast actually til 2pm ++.. and they are VERY hungry.. KS ate the most!! [woah~]

during Phobia time, gosh.. it was scary!! no one sit beside me and I was keep imagining what if the chair comes down by itself?! and the girls beside the unsitted chair are very noisy, they talked and laughed very loud lo~ ya.. and WW sit until so cool like nothing happened while I keep turning my head whenever I was frightened!![compare and contrast] haha! and ya, we admitted my good turning skills because not once also my head bang him!! haha..

we played hide and seek for 20 minutes.. and ate ice cream.. then go back!! Thanks to WW and KS for teman-ing me go back to Kepong station..[their stop is act Bank Negara, and it arrives b4 kepong].. thank you korang banyak banyak!!

I had lotta fun!! thanks guys~

2/12

2009-12-05T12:05:00.003+08:00

Did you realised I didn't talk about Mlk trip?
ya.. cz BL sudah habiskan semua cerita itu!!

went gurney for movie again!!
Warren fetched us.. haha~ [thanks Mr. Driver!!]
this time, we've got me, sis, Pat, Warren, and YS!!

we planned to watch Phobia 2~
went there, haha..
no more show!!
so.. after long discussion, we decided to watch New Moon bcz refused to watch Christmast Carol!!
and sorry 4 Twilight fans, the show is very boring!!
but what makes us keep laughing quietly, is the people in the front row!!
listening to their conv really keep us awake!!

haha~
oh.. did I tell you Mr. L is cute?!
=]
haha~

28/11

2009-12-05T11:44:00.002+08:00

I kat Penang only for 1 week la!
ya.. arrived on Friday!!

Saturday went out with sis, Pat, Mich, SY, GZ, Roger and Warren!!
went gurney red box first, then movie~
I think its either me too outdated or they are..
cz the songs they chose, fuyoh!!
I didn't hear b4 one..

ya...
and half way singing dear GBL video call me to make me jealous!!
I tell you, I blacklist korang sudah!! =p
and I showed BL lengzai through video call man!!

I went back in room 12 and dia orang thought I was talking to my BF..
haha~

drama

2009-12-05T11:16:00.003+08:00

lalala~
watched a drama yesterday! [its a drama, not movie]
Celebration, it is called!
very funny lor..and full of dirty words~
ya...and it costs me rm15 to watch this drama which took only 70 minutes!!

before entering the so-called hall,
we were so bek chek outside with lottha people!!
oh ya!! "we" are me, sis, and Pat!

after drama-ing, we went makan la of coz kan?!
ya.. dear Mr Pat keep rounding here and there to find for food..
the passengers in the car got bored and this came out..

hahaha~end up found a place to makan ad..

and I dunno what it's called!! haha~

and the drama okok aje lo!! macam sangat ng dai saje~

20/11

2009-11-20T19:14:00.002+08:00

lets start with going to the field to practice marching at 7.30am!!
Gosh.. everyone, including me, excluding YHY seems like half dead!!
so sleepy man!!!

oh ya!
and dear GBL sudah straightened her hair!!
tapi padan muka at the same time,
sebab she cannot tie her hair and keep complaining she feel very hot..
=p

and FMF makan until sangat full kat PH.. XD
jugak lupa 2 pay back MML money timm~~
[not purposely de ah]
and ter-follow the song 'SHUT UP AND DRIVE' when MML is talking while she's driving!!
[seriously!! not purposely!!]

lastly!!
excited about tomorrow~
haha... macam sakai je..
what to do?!
its my first time.. lalala~~

reflection

2009-11-12T23:19:00.004+08:00

if it's not because of the reflection,
today's dilemma would not happen!!

if it's not because of the reflection,
MF would not be this sad!!

if it's not because of the reflection,
MF would not wake up!!

and if it's not because of the reflection,
MF is still living in her fairy tale!!

oh dear!!
GBL, MF need you sangat sangat now..
you must know that it's not MF's will to be like this.
She is guilty, yes she knows!

please stop scolding the thing beating in her left chest!!
because it suffers a lot too~
although it is its fault!

MF is trying to avoid things from getting worse!

??

2009-11-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

nothing to post, actually..haha!

dear darling

2009-09-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

It's fun to quarrel with you...to be exact, FIGHT!!
but definitely not the scissors fight, kay??
its scary!!

Enjoy every moment asking you to "shut up"!!
and sometimes "shut it" as you've used my line!!
And also stop talking to you cz you are way too noisy..[haha]
and also because you are abusing me..
mentally, physically and emotionally!!

Enjoy the moments of gossiping others!!
though its bad,
still...
we love it!!

Enjoy wandering around the school with you
to find teachers

Enjoy chatting with you
sharing experiencing-experience
[its good to know that someone has the same thought]
and that someone is so near, very near

Enjoy every single day seeing your face
and made Izzati laugh everyday [not purposely]
and made YPW said we makes weird noises!!

love u much much!!

finally

2009-09-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

"Girls, the letter is finally here!!" Ms.S said

It was the letter that everyone doesn't wanna receive..
The truth of only 10subjects can be taken is right in front of me..
haha..
Too bad la~

I've chosen account instead of EST
not that I find EST boring or useless
I just...
prefer account more..

counting is always easier than writing for me!! ^^

2009-09-05T15:30:00.005+08:00

Found this picture somewhere and agreed to it!!

Thank you very much for completing my life!!

It'll sure be incomplete and meaningless without you~

may God bless you always!! =]

No more

2009-09-01T22:57:00.002+08:00

We are basically back to square one!!

No more texting
No more chatting
No more talking
No more looking at each other
No more caring words from you
No more lame jokes from you
No more problems of yours
No more comforting words from you after nightmares
No more 'sorry' from you for breaking promises
No more 'no next time' from you
No more promises from you
No more laugh-for-nothing from you

fmf is quite lonely without you~

simply

2009-09-01T16:38:00.005+08:00

Fun time has gone!!
Let's get back into studying mode~

Today is such a cold day,
and I'm sitting below the fan!!

After one period of English,
I didn't notice AT ALL that the fans were off!!
and yet, I still keep complaining it's freezing cold!! [=.="]

Dear wei wen,
not that I do not wanna update..
It's just I have nothing to be updated!!
and your result of boredom,
80 questions lea~
lazy to answer.. [haha]
I promise I will update once I got things to be updated, kay??
haha..

gbl's big day!!

2009-08-27T07:56:00.002+08:00

Dear GBL..

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to Bei Lynnnnnn~~

Happy Birthday to YOU!!!!

Happy Sweet 16!!

Stay cheerful

Stay energetic

Stay funny [;)]

zhong zi,

Stay as who you are!!

muacks!!

fmf love u..

Friends Forever??

hahaha...

-meifang-

Confused

2009-08-04T18:27:00.004+08:00

I have never so confused before..
The feeling is so scary when I couldn't answer their questions..

I wanted to say out loud that I really do ..
but the words evaporated before they manage to come out!!
I don't know whether that's my true answer,
or the answer that I wish I had??

I've tried changing topics,
but...
that doesn't change the fact, does it??

I've never doubted my feelings like how I do today!!
Do I really have to??
If that question was asked again..
Will I be able to answer confidently??

I seriously don't know my not-sad-feeling is just to cover my own feeling and weaknesses..
or I'm not sad at all??!!

I really don't know~~

does it hurt??

2009-07-28T21:49:00.003+08:00

*bang*
Promises broken again!!
though you have promised not to hang around with her??
but you DID
supposing no feeling since this is not your first time doing so
but,
God, seriously,
are you out of your mind??

You have been warned!!
have been told!!
have seen the others!!

How come??
how come you still can trust a person like that??

There's nothing else you could do right now,
except..
think of a way to reduce the "impulsive force" on her..
so that she would not be too hurt by the truth..

As I told you,
day by day..
the true colour of hers will be revealed slowly!!

But you just do not listen..
now,
you know the pain!!

SL

2009-07-23T17:49:00.003+08:00

Texting you has already became a habit for me..
Everyday, it just seems like there's still lotz of things to talk to you!!

Since long long time ago,
promises have been made by you..
and those promises are not promises anymore,
cuz you broke those promises!!
Except maybe for one..

You are going soon,
in just few months time
so just let's see if that promise will be fulfilled!!

I have known you for 5 years
Quarreling all the time
but as time passes, we became friends

Many things had happened in the period of 5 years,
of coz..
we are affected!!
But we managed to hold on til now..

So just pray hard that whatever happened next,
will not gonna affect our friendship!! =)

class trip!!!

2009-07-23T17:32:00.002+08:00

Yay!!
4sc3 went for class trip today!!
:)

yea right!!
Itz actually-RIMUP (Rancangan Integrasi Murid Untuk Perpaduan)

but still the whole sc3 went kan?!
so, we considered it as our class trip!!

SMK Raja Ali and SMP Jalan Ipoh and of coz..SMK St Mary
these schools are involved only..
Had lotta fun and new friends there ^^

I really admire a girl's talent in drawing..
During our poster drawing competition,
we actually ask that girl (from other team),
to help us draw human.. :P

Did I mention that I'm the one gave idea in how our poster will look like?
oh, I'm so proud!!
MF giving idea in seni weh~~
miracle!!

we sang and cheered and laughed out loud in the bus..
Really love sc3-ians to da max!!!
muacks..love u guys much..

Which one??

2009-07-08T19:01:00.007+08:00

Which is better??

The one who find you only when you are in touble...

Or the one who find you only when they are in trouble??

Please do pay attention on the word 'ONLY'
Both equally sucks for me!!

It means if I am not in trouble, I can't see XXX
and if XXX is not in trouble, then I lagi can't see XXX

Shall I wish that I will get into trouble if I wanna see XXX
and shall I wish that XXX will get into trouble if I wanna see XXX???!!

p/s: both XXX are different people!!

King

2009-07-07T18:31:00.005+08:00

Yesterday King was saying that I've never been early to her class..
[actually I feel she was complaining to HMY more than telling me to be early lo!!]
haha~~

I said it's because our Tuesday class is after reccess..
So, I gotta take care class then only can go for my class
and she said Friday also wat?!
then only I realised that Friday class is the 1st period,
the same thing...

Today after reccess,
I cepat cepat go to the lab already,
which is early..
and because I can't see the board, I sat in front!!

So, when our monitor asked us to greet her when she entered the lab,
she was shocked to see me there before her!!
[can see from her face lah~]
King : oh my god, so surprised that you are here!!

I happy that finally I am earlier than her..
even just for once..
I did it!! :)

lala~~

2009-06-13T23:26:00.005+08:00

I just hate it when I cant sign in my msn!!
It sucks man
damn poor connection!!

Not everyone can choose their fate and destiny!!
if you are so happen to be given a chance to do so, what your choice will be??

if you are able to change the past,
will you change anything?
for me, I won't!!

Pasts only train us to be stronger!!
it is not important to know what had happened?
but it is important to know what is going to happen?

Pasts are something that we have to accept
and future is something that we have to go through!!
our future mainly depends on our past~

ignore me, i'm crapping!! ;)

in love~~ ;)

2009-06-05T09:55:00.004+08:00

I am in love!!!!
Serious!!

One day I was in pl's house and we talk about him!!
but..
one word that they've said,
had stopped all my fantasies!!

"He is not a him!! He is a she!!"
*piang*
what??

Come..
you guys tell me..
Does she look like a he??

张芸京！！

She sing damn nice weh~~

I love her singing!!

but he is a she..

haih...

takpe..

I vil still support her!!

haha~~

blood donation promo..

2009-06-04T09:15:00.005+08:00

hey hey hey..
promo time is here!!

St. John Ambulance is organizing a blood donation campaign!!

Venue : Carrefour, Kepong (1st floor)
Time : 10.30am - 5pm
Date : 7th June 2009 (Sunday)

Those who are interested to donate blood, these are the requirements:

1) Must be older than 17 years old.
2) If you are 17 years old (passed your 2009 birthday), you have to bring along your parents.
3) You must not involved in : homosexual activities
bisexual activities
more than 1 sex partner
4) You must be more than 45kg.
5) Pregnant ladies or those who are on their menstrual period cannot donate blood.

for more informations..
please do come on that day!!

thank you...
:)

Love~

2009-06-03T20:19:00.002+08:00

Do not lessen your love by crying..

why did you cried??
to release the burden in you!!

why are there burden in you??
because you love!!

so..
crying actually lessen your burden, causing your love to be lessened too...

do not cry, no matter how heavy is your burden!!
keep the love in you..
you might not show it to anyone..
but
as long as the love is still there,
you will know..
you still have the hope in your life!!

:)

2009-06-03T20:02:00.005+08:00

distributing out flyers from house to house is not an easy task
especially under the hot sun
and got barked by dogs...

so, don't simply throw any flyers onto the ground without taking a look at it!!
kesian the people that distribute those flyers!!

and haih..
God, why am I always this weak le??
tak pasal pasal dizzy..
banggang me!!

flyer distribution

2009-06-03T19:40:00.003+08:00

today I'm involved in the flyers distributing for St. John..
woke up at 6.30am..(the alarm actually was set at 6am)
get ready and went HY's house..

divided into 2 team..
1 following py, 1 following hyy
psa, kcm, csy and me followed hyy..

went the housing area near kepong..
1st destination...
kena halau by the guard..
banggang betul..
he followed us til we are out of the housing area!!

then we ma go other place lo
every housing area that we went also got security guard!!
but we can go in la..
just that there's something I don't really understand
since they got guard, it should be secured, kan?!
but many many many people have dogs!!!!!!!!
some houses somemore got more than 1 dog...

they keep on bark and bark and bark..
nothing else to do izzit??
and some dogs even more cool weh~~
they actually started barking before I go to that house!! =.=

after dunno how long,
I feel like going to the toilet..(tulah pasal minum air too much!!)
but that street, is actually a no-ending street..
so I decided to ask to tumpang toilet!!
mana tahu takde seorang pun yang ada di luar rumah!!

then tahan tahan tahan..
walk til house number 133, ask 1 uncle so that I can tumpang toilet!!
he let me in..
after that, I feel dizzy
according to him, it's because I tahan too long already..

after resting a while at there, psa and I continue with the flyers!!
I was feeling fine...
until I reached a house number 331..
then I feel like a bit bit dizzy again..
(hey!! 133 and 331)
oh my gosh..
dashyat!!
yy said can buy toto ad..^^

after finished 2000 flyers, we went to a cafe to makan!!
then.. balik!!
phew~~
what a day!!

Happy Teachers' Day!!

2009-05-29T22:28:00.001+08:00

Today is our Teachers' Day celebration!!
It was awesome!!!!!!!!

I sat with the 4A4 girls..
Najwa, Elina and Amirah!!
for the very 1st time I wasn't sitting with my own gang..
we tend to get along very well..
as Amirah said, I have already sebulu with them!!^^

I really did enjoy myself to the max..
was having sore throat for keep cheering with the guys!!
reali tak tahan see the hot and sexy teachers!!
You rock girls!!!

Next, I am very happy because most of the people love the song I Will Be..
feel so proud of myself to choose that song!!
haha..
psa have done a great job in editing the lyrics
*cool*

Then,
my sayang...(haha)
a.k.a sexy is so sexy..
haha
she, mun, and su was great!!d

And to cmf..
sure you are feeling good right?!
the celebration was a great, awesome success!!
you have done a marvellous job!! :)

fyi...
Elina took me for a round with her motorcycle!!
*nice*
omg..
cool weh~~
ahh...
really nice... :)

It's Over

2009-05-29T22:05:00.003+08:00

2 weeks of examination is finally over!!
as usual, add maths is still a nightmare for me!!

That day when I was sitting for it,
I felt dizzy, real dizzy
and I slept for twice!!
and I left 6 qstns worth 31 marks to be blank... *sobx*

It is totally a disaster of mine in form 4..
I hope that I will be much more prepared for the coming exams..

Came to the end of mid-year examination make me feel happy and sad at the same time..
:) + :( = ??
Happy=duh...itz the end of examination!!
Sad=homeworks vil be coming soon!!

during the hols, I will really try my best to adapt those subjects that are not consumed yet
i hope...^^

sick of it

2009-05-26T20:57:00.004+08:00

It's already 2106...
and I'm still here
in front of the computer!!

2mr, exam still on!!
and it's the paper that will definitely kills me!!
ADD MATHS!!!!!!!!!!!!
[alrite...maybe a little bit too exaggerate..haha]

I don't have the urge to study add maths
although i wanna to..
I just got bored when I can't understand what the heck I'm actully looking at!!

Don't say digest the thing,
I can't even consume that subject!!

I MOST PROBABLY will FAIL all my science subjects
ESPECIALLY PHYSICS!!!!
although I really do enjoy this subject, I just don't know why I can't even answer the most easy question!!
I've already knew that I will fail before I do my paper 2 this Thursday
because dear paper 1 had already given me the conclusion~

Today after break, we are free..
[for those who didn't take chinese]
if you glance through the whole class, everyone is revising their add maths!!
but if you'd look properly, there sits a girl doing nothing!!
Itu pun saya!!

Just pray hard that I don't pass out during the exam..
maybe 2mr,
I will just stare at the paper, hoping the paper could give me the answer!!

Oh God, I pray to you..
please make my add maths paper come to life and could tell me the answer for the questions on its body...

just kidding..
later teacher say I cheat in exam pulak!!

Oh God,
please guide me throughout the exam..
please give me the power of memory and understanding
so that I can really know what I'm reading later midnight and remember it til 2mr!!
and 1 more..
please give me the power to stay awake tonight..
[if not I will just doze off like the other days where I onl study that subject at 7am in school til exam starts]
hope my wishes will be granted
I think I'm not too greedy, am I?!
Thank you God...

simply nia~

2009-05-13T22:34:00.010+08:00

I do feel that life is weird..
There are many things that could happen,
even those that you don't even expect it will happen...

Who will ever guessed that I will have a didi??
haha~~
Di, funny la u!!

And you!!
who will ever expect that we will chat for so long today?
remember what you've promised me..
there's no need to listen to MP3 when you are bored!!
and all the things I've said today..

Similarly, I will definitely remember my promise to you..
I will tell you whenever I got hurt
I won't let you be happy when I'm hurt
thus, don't worry that I will not tell you!!

I do appreciate our friendships
a lot a lot...
more than you think I do!!
More than both of you do!!
hahaha~~
love you guys!!

(and love to call you di~~) ^^

lonely...I'm Mr. Lonely...

2009-04-17T00:31:00.006+08:00

She is hurt enough..
Can't you just stop hurting her??
Her parents bring her to this world to enjoy life...

Her heart is meant to pump blood..
Not meant to be hurt..

The fear of loneliness is still somewhere in her heart
She tried so hard to eliminate the fear
but she is not strong enough
therefore, she hide it somewhere deep down in her heart

She thought that she won't feel that anymore
but she was wrong..

Whenever she is there,
sitting alone..or maybe
when she was telling some other people about that,
*dong*
here comesthe fear
the sadness
the feel of loneliness

She may keep joking and laughing or maybe, just smiling
but who knows what's playing in her mind at that time??
She hopes that the moment of happiness will not end..
She will not stop joking, laughing, smiling..

But the cruel reality disappoint her
she stops
not because she is tired
it's just simply because there's no one beside her anymore..

Thus, she is trying damn hard to be independent
she is still trying hard now
however, no matter how hard she tries,
she still feels lonely at times..

She once said
"friends are forever"
"once I said you are my friend, then you are...forever"
and she said to those people
"once you are, forever you are"
but how true it can be??
now she gotta said...
"we are distanced"

She is very tired of trying to guess who is true and who is not
she is not observantshe can't differentiate truths or lies
she doesn't know haw many big fat liars will appear in her life
she's tryna to be optimistic..
believing that there are someone she can rely trust and rely on..
she found some but still doubting...

She is still doubting...

seventh of april

2009-04-07T23:32:00.003+08:00

The e-PPDa competition is on Wednesday(tomorrow) and Thursday..
Basically, tomorrow we have to build the powerpoint presentation there and there..
48 slides in 3 hours..
At first, all of us thought it's ok, we can manage it!!
But we are wrong..

It turns out that we must use microsoft 2003...
Which we are blur in..
We are so used to 2007!!

When we practised building it up today..
I feel so frustrated!!
I can't find the thing I wanna find..
custom animation, hyperlink wordart and etc..

I myself used 1 hour and 3 minutes to finish my part which is only 16 slides..
We actually planned to use 45 minutes each person
and 15 minutes to do the animation!!
GOD...

We presented in front of a F1 class today in the media room..
We have already forgotten most of our script..
We got the comments from the class..
and we are going to improve ourselves based on the comments..
the most important thing is..
memorize the script!!!!!

And they said that I talk BM got English slang..
Got meh??
especially the word 'cara-cara' they said..
I've already practice at home..
I feel it was ok..
bt I dunno..
Tomorrow must practice in front of Kaveesha and Husna!!

Husna..
sorry ya for what I've done today..
I just can't control myself..
And I've told you beforehand what I can be when I'm stressed, kan?!
Anyway, I'm just voicing out..
Since you still keep doing the same thing when Kaveesha told you not to..
I guess I have to tell you again lo..
We just don't want a one-man-show in our competition!!
We are a team, together we will fight til the end..
K??
remember: THE LAW OF ATTRACTION!! :)

nightmare!!

2009-04-01T21:43:00.004+08:00

Oh God...
Please tell me it's all just a dream...
It didn't really happened, did it??

Went to school,
struggling to memorize my script..
#Reading time, went counselling room to add 1 more slide..(the 1 that had killed me)

Proceeded to the hall..
Set up the laptop..
Yuga said SL went to take the plug(??) for the music..
So, we presented half of our presentation without music!!

When its my turn...
well,
-over and inappropriate body gesture
- too nervous
- hands tak tentu arah
- missed out a slide (# dat 1)
- said SORRY when I missed that without actually remembering that there's a mic on my hand..

Fish like hell!!
but still have to act like nnothing happened and keep going on...
haih..
like this still got hope to win ah me??
They said at least I got an experience since this is my 1st time..(although itz a not-so-good experience)
so that I can strengthen my strengths more and improve my weaknesses..
the sorry was a disaster!!

Thanks to WJ and YS..
they are like so cool...*thumbs up*
and so pro man..
haha...^^

no title

2009-03-29T15:53:00.004+08:00

Her life won't be influenced by you...
you do not affect her day...
She is still happy for the rest of her day!!
She is still busy with her OWN works, not because of you..
Her tears may drop...
BUT it's definitely not because of you...

You do not play any role in her life!!
So why don't you just back off,
get out of her life..
You existance in her life is just to proof that she can overcome challenges better...
Thanks to you, she got a target in her life,
To eliminate you...

She don't give a damn about you..
Stop there!!
Don't come any nearer..
She don't need you to bother her anymore..
Just buzz off!!

in the morning

2009-03-24T22:01:00.003+08:00

Morning morning go to school,
chat with friends in class..
"Girls, it's time to read your story books"
walking to my next door,
4A4...

"Alright girls, settle down and start reading"
*silence*
"Shh...start reading, stop talking"
"Pull up your socks"
reply: "Later lah.."

She won't listens to me,
I don't know why...
No matter how many times I ask her to do a particular things,
"Later lah.." will be her answer!!
I wonder why lo...
My friend (her friend too) told me that I should have know why..
But..
I really don't know..
I just hope that her can stay outta troubles, that's all..

But once I step into my lovely class..then.....
*woosh*
all about duties dissapeared..
Really love them to da max man!!
They are fun!!
haha...
joke and joke and joke like nobody bussiness...^^

today

2009-03-23T23:17:00.005+08:00

Today in school..
Argh...
*pain*
classmates should know what happened, kan?
haha...

I forgot to bring my pendrive to school today causing the processing the e-PPDa project gotta delay..
Sorry guys, for wasting your time..
You guys skip classes for nothing and I'm nicely studying in my class..
My truly apology to you guys..

went through hard times today...
Only one word to describe lo..
PAIN!!

and OMG...
I forgot to pass up my EST exercise book eventhough Miss Sim came to me and say " mf, remember to pass up ur exercise book to me today, ya"
Oh oh...
sorry Miss Sim..
I'll pass it up to you tommorow, k?!
I promise^^
and someone please tell me one of the similarities and the differences between common cold and flu..

Got to know what happened to them yesterday!!
God...
So sweet...

hey you...
ego fella... haha...
joking nia la...
dun angry oh...^^
plz b more proactive bah..
haha..
*winks*
anyway...
happy belated birthday!!

Busy~

2009-03-17T19:46:00.004+08:00

I am very busy...
*liar...*
hmm...
Actually I should say that I don't really know how to manage my time well lo!!
I have not finish up all my homeworks...
argh....

Today went back to school for St. John...
I khusyuk ajar-ing the juniors (play more lo I feel)
And I FORGOT TO GO TO THE LIBRARY!!!!
I left Husna in the library doing our e-PPDa project ALONE there after Kaveesha have to go for tuition..
I feel very guilty~
I am sorry..
I feel that I don't really commited in it..

Have to stop the nonsense...
Therefore~~~
Vission : No more delayed works so that I can enjoy more!!
Mission : Got to push myself to finish up current works..

I hope...
- I will be able to finish up all those delayed works
- I can attend every weeks' tuitions
- I still have time to do revision (ya right)
- e-PPDa project is a success
- Balance myself in studies and clubs as well as rest!!
- I can successfully lose weight!! (oh God, plz come true!!)

School~

2009-01-11T00:29:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time since the last time my blog was updated...
I don't have the mood to online nowadays~~
I prefer stay inside my room, texting people...

Okay~~
I was placed in 4sc3...
The class member there are friendly..
kaka...
I sit next to Thanusha!!!

Hmm...
I take care of 5A1 for a week..
I kinda miss last year's 5A1..!!!
LOL...

Err...
Prefects no longer have offence slips to write..
They change the system to merit and demerit!!
As the whole class they will get it...
So, it actually trains them to be corperative among each other!!

My next door class, 4sc4 will be vanish next week...
The reason is...
there are too many 4A3 students in that class..
That's why they will come out with 4A4 by shutting down 4sc4..
Poor class~
They just only got to know each other nia!!!
haih....

day 3~going back

2008-12-09T23:18:00.003+08:00

Well, they are going to Genting Highlands actually!!
We sent them to KL Sentral and they went there by bus..

When we were back to house,
it seems so quiet~
Not really used to it..
You know, when they were here..
shouting, laughing, playing~~

and...
I...
straight away go up to my room
SLEEP!!

Wad'ya think??
I'm not robot, ok??
very tired one...

touring~day 2

2008-12-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

I got to write Sunday's stuff today...
because...
I spoil my computer on Saturday~
I got angry when I'm off-ing my computer
so, I bang it~
The next day, I tried on-ing it...
Tak jadi~~ =.="

For all of your information...
I'm just bull-shitting that day about her...
I don't know what I'm crapping also~(sweat huh?!)
and yes, I am sensitive ah..
That's me!!^^

ok, cut the crap...

that day we went Batu Caves and suddenly Wei Yang told us that there were people shooting some indian movie~~
so..we decided to go there 8 for a while..
but...
we waited very long only the director shouted 'action'...=.=

After that, we went KL tower..
only my sister, brother and father went up~
the others say it was too expensive!!

Then, we went shopping at Sg. Wang and Times Square!!
Everyone except Roger bought something..
Wei Yang, Warren and Yi Ru went Borders while we were shopping..
Warren and Yi Ru joined us after that, left Wei Yang in Borders!!

Then, we wanna go back alr..
We meet up with Wei Yang..
At night, we play mahjong...again!!
this time until 2.30am..
sleepy??
no!!
FUN!!!

touring~day 1

2008-12-07T01:41:00.002+08:00

I woke up at 6.45am just to avoid queeing up to bath..
We went to KLCC first..
and our first destination is...
Kinokuniya!!!
I bought 2 books~~
hiak hiak..

We spent half of the day in Kinokuniya
then we went food court to grab our lunch..
After that, we went for shopping!!

At almost 4pm, we decided to go to Mid Valley..
we watched Bolt, 3D
RM17 wei...
we were shocked!!
We went back at 9pm something!!

Do you know what are we doing now??
Playing mahjong!!
NOISY~~

PS, one of them is Yi Ru, not Ru Yi..
sorry...

Guests~~

2008-12-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

My sister and her friends (some are my friends too^^...) just arrived KL from Penang..
Mum took them out for their dinner..
I didn't follow them
because I'm dieting!!!!
argh......

Roger, Soon Shan, Ru Yi are strangers for me..
whereas Warren, Gui Zhi, Wei Yang and Su Ying...
kinda 'ripe' with them la...
KINDA onl...

Tomorrow I'm their tour guide
but I scared I also will be lost...
haha...
because normally my dad will be with me,
but...
now I'm by myself with penang-ians...

But okay la...
It's a time for me,
FMF to be independant!!!!
I wanna show to them,
Me as Kuala Lumpur-ian ( why sound so cacat??),
know KL's selok belok!!!
(also don't know success or not?)

Another thing about them coming here is...
I have to give my room for them to sleep!!
I'm sleeping in my mum's room...
And all my soft toys~~
I have to stuff them into the closet...
sorry ah~~
I promise, will save you guys out ASAP
ok??

My 1st tag.......

2008-12-03T10:49:00.004+08:00

The rules:-link to your tagger and post these rules.
List 8 random facts about yourself and tag 8 people
1. crazy 2. respect those who deserve being respected 3. weirdo 4. moody 5 boring 6. stupid 7. hot-tempered 8. friendly
1. Jun Yin 2. Chien Min 3. Pei Ying 4. Bei Lynn 5. Pui Yee 6. Josie 7. Flora 8. Jasmine
YOUfirst name: Fong lo...
name you wish you had: never thought of that..guez mine was ok...
what do people normally your name as: FMF, MF, meifang
birthday: 9th March
birthplace: Kuala Lumpur
time of birth: I dunno le...
single or taken: Taken gua~~
zodiac sign: Pieces
YOUR APPEARANCE
how tall are you:153cm
wish you were taller: 157cm??
eye color: black
current hair color: black
short or long hair: long lo..
ever dye your hair a bizarre color: no..was not allowed to!!
last time you did something dramatic with your hair: I forgot..
glasses or contact: glasses, when I can't see...
do you wear make up: no...
paint your nails: not really gua...
In an opposite gender
what color eye: anything, as long as I'm attracted to them..
what color hair: as long as he looks yeng and cool...!!
shy or outgoing: outgoing of coz...
sexy or cute: a lil from both can ah??
serious or fun: fun... but sometimes serious also not bad...
older or younger than you: of coz older...I'm not interested in small boys..haha
a turn on:
a turn off:
(Mei Fen advice me to skip these two qstn as I'm still too young for it!!)
This and That
flowers or chocolate: chocolate!!
pepsi or coke: both taste quite the same for me..
rap or rock: I'm not so sure
relationship or one night stand: relationship...!!
school or work: school + part time..??
love or money: money comes 1st..unless he's rich!!..$_$
movie or music: both are my fav...
country or city: city la...can't stand mosquitoes..
sunny or rainy days: rainy..love tha rains and the rythm of them
friends or family: depends on situation..
Have you ever lie: I'm human..what do you think??
stole something: no..i guez
smoked: nope... I'm a gud gal..(ya rite..)
hurt someone close to you: yes.. all the time
broke someone's heart: hurt=break their heart..right??
had you heart broken: uncountable times..
wonder what was wrong with you: yupe..
wish you were prince or princess: princess..??
like someone who was taken: yea...but hate to be the 3rd person lo..
shaved your head: er...NO!!!!
used chopstick: all da time!!
sang in the mirror to yourself: I'm weirdo, of coz la pernah!!
Favourites flower: any flower that suit my mood..
candy: lollipop!! haha
song: all songs that I feel is nice lo..
scent: nice scent la
color: all the colors..
movie: all movies except those war, fighting...(boring)
singer: Justin Timberlake!!!!!!!!!!!
junk food: EVERTHING!!!
website: juzwannabemyself.blogspot.com
location: anywhere..shopping complex 1st in the list!!
animal: hamster!!
ever cried over someone: all the time
is there anything you wish you could change bout yourself: my height, my weight, my character, my temper!!
do you think you're attractive: nope
if you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose: Belle, Beauty and the Beast..
do you play any sports: nope

S.H.I.T

2008-12-03T10:16:00.002+08:00

sorry, I didn't mean that
but...
SHIT!!!!

My dad got the Maxis handphone bill yesterday
SHIT
he found out that I use too much
SHIT
he will give me a big lecture (act, is my dad and mum)
SHIT

So, b4 the talking start..
I ran upstairs with the excuse of cleaning my room!! (clever huh?!)
but once I've said it, I really have to clean up...
SHIT

I really don't think I used a lot lo..
SHIT...
(why am I keep shitting??
ans: to match the title ma..)
I 've already tried my best not to use so much..(I really did, ok?)
but...
I just can't stop it as I got to chat with someone ma...

I think I really have to do something..
but I can't tell out here..
who knows later my parents read my blog??
then that time memang SHIT SHIT SHIT liao...

hmm...

2008-12-03T09:51:00.003+08:00

I wonder how MF can be so forgiving..
her parents don't let her go out with her friends...
they told her why
and she understands them...

but if it was me, I would have be angry with them for a long period..
I 'm definitely that kind of wanna live my own life..
I will decide what to do without have to ask for anyone's permission!!!

but maybe MF is correct
what they did was for our own good..
they are protecting us..
(I still do feel mine was a lil, I mean very, over protective)

why??

2008-11-30T12:20:00.000+08:00

Weiya...
I don't really know whether you realize it or not, but we are getting further...
We aren't as close as how we used to be..
Now, we don't even text each other
I really wanna know what's going on
You used to tell me that nothing's gonna stand in our way...
but but but.........
Haih....
I'm getting insane
After both of you broke up, we didn't contact much..
I wonder why, she's the one break up with you, not me...

2008-11-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

"Mei Fang!!!"
"90 degree!!"
"Hands straight!!"
"Hentak harder!!"
"Stand straight!!"
"AGAIN!!"
Hmm...
These are what I normally heard from them...
Haha...
I know I have much more rooms to improve...
I just gotta go for it...
They now seems to be more careful when they speak out my mistakes (esp after saw my previous blog) which made me feel a lil uncomfortable...
Because I know, they just don't wanna hurt me and make me feel hopeless...
Don't worry...
I'm fine...
Just kinda emo during the previous blog..
I will practice hard...
I practice myself every night..(and just now)
But, I just can't stand properly..(I don't know why)
Haha...
Funny!!

Sobx~~T.T

2008-11-20T15:34:00.000+08:00

Today went HY's house to practice St. John with everyone..
My marching so damn sucks man!!
Everyone can get it right, just me...
Feel myself so useless..
It just few simple steps and I....
I heard HY told SA that she hope that we could win in marching...
But with me in the team...Urgh...
I scared that I will disappoint those who really got the confidence to win!!
WY taught me personally when other people were resting..
Tears almost roll down my cheek at that time...
FMF!!
wake up man!!!
u r so useless!!!!!!

Back from 1U

2008-11-19T19:21:00.000+08:00

Went to 1U just now...
but only me and sa...
Suet Yan was not feeling well, Chien Min's following her mum...
Therefore, left the two of us..
We watched The Coffin..
DAMN SCARY...
At 1st the theater only got two of us..(scary..)
We waited outside for more people to go in 1st...
We are proud of ourselves for being brave!!(clap clap clap)
Then, we started to shop...
We've been walking back and forth new wing and old wing..
Around 3.15pm, ys joined us...
And we met Yun Yee in front of the Popular...
Then we walk walk walk...
Suddenly don't know why ys unhappy..(suddenly je tau)
She fetch us back to my house..
Then sa mum came and fetch her back!!
Now punya feeling...don't know le....

BOO~~

2008-11-19T08:39:00.000+08:00

Hey hey...
Guess where am I now??
I'm at..Su Ann's house lea...(I know I'm lame)
Later I'm going to 1U with her, Chien Min and Suet Yan later...
By cab...ooohh...
1st time taking cab with those who are same age with me...
Will tell you guys what happened there when I'm back from there...
Gtg...

dinner...

2008-11-16T19:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday my family and I went for the Fusionexcel dinner at Serdang there...
And I can tell that, "Pui Yee, luckily you didn't come!!"
The hall is big and well decorated...
It's crowded with people as well...
They had places where you can decorate your pendant with small crystal, change your hook and your chain...
The thing looked much nicer after being decorated...
But...too bad...
I forgot to bring, so I can't decorate mine..
Then, it begins...
The first show was a karatae show..
Fuyoh!!
They damn geng la wei!!
Then they start serving us our dinner..
And..It taste different yet special..
Imagine...shark fin + tomyam...(It's my 1st time!!)
After that, the whole thing went dull...
The food getting less tasty..(maybe it doesn't suit my taste only lo..)
Then they showed us video through two big screens..
It wasn't clear at all..
And the emcees were lame..(That's what i feel)
Ei?! I realised something!!
People start going back..
Well, I got bored around 10pm...(That time they just served the third dishes only eh..)
Then, I asked my parents to go back..
And..
I cooked maggie mee and eat at house..(It tastes better)...

"I don't care"

2008-11-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Ms. Boey, I have to go back to school today and I got a chance to meet her..
I talked to her about what I heard...
"I don't care" was what came out from her mouth..
She know that thing is gonna happen as well..
And she told me that she got confidence it won't be what those people wanted..
So, there's no need for her to change or do anything to avoid it..
'Am I too busy body??
Even she also don't care, what for I care...right??'
That's exactly what I was thinking the whole day...
Even Rebecca also ask me not to care about it anymore...
But, can I??
Hmm...
I'm trying...
Still trying...
And will be keep trying...

Urgh...

2008-11-13T16:55:00.001+08:00

Omg..
I heard something yesterday...
And I can't stop thinking about that...
I wanna help my friend so badly...
But I realised that I can't!!
I wish to talk to her about it and ask her to change..
However, I won't be meeting her till next year!!!
I hope it's not too late to talk to her next year when we meet...
I know how important it is to her!!!
I know she doesn't wanna lose it either..
But her style, she won't beg for it!!
I know if she lose it, she's gonna be damn sad!!
Her happy face telling me that she got it last year still playing in my mind..
She even told me that her mum was very proud of her...
I can't bear to see she sad!!
Oh God..
Please help her!!!
I feel so frustrated when I can't do anything for her...
I'm sorry...

Newbie

2008-11-13T16:34:00.000+08:00

First time come here lea...
I finally took up Mei Fen's suggestion to write here...
She says : write and write and write good for health, helps mental retardation...>.<"
So, now I will blurt out here whatever need to be blurted out..
If not, my toys will suffer listening to my sweet and sour..
I will still continue it but lesser la...
I think my future blogs are going to be boring..
If you do feel that, I advice you not to continue lo...
Later made you feel bored then not good la..^^